Fail.

So I failed again. What do you do when your whole life is made of nothing but failures?

People I’ve failed recently… Let’s start with my girlfriend. This is kind of a touchy subject. She tells me she’s cried herself to sleep a few times this school year. I ask why she hasn’t talked to me about it, and she says every time she has I’ve been drunk. I tell her I’ll stop drinking so I can still be there for her, and she gets upset. So I go out and drink tonight, and she gets upset. Of course she won’t tell me, but I know she is.

Then, my parents. They don’t know it, but I’m sure I have. I’m the alcoholic, failure of a son. My ears have “huge holes” in them, and I’m not going to be as successful as either of my parents.

Thirdly, and most possibly most importantly, myself. I can’t even take care of myself half the time… How can I take care of her?

~ by Traverse on January 23, 2009.